Cipher Lyrics

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As You Were
At a Loss
Blinding Flash
Choir of One
Cold Steel Handles
Common Desires
Don’t You Wonder Why
Easier Said Than Done
Easy as She Goes
Got Caught Doing What I Ought Not Do
Heartache’s in Store
Home Sweet Gone
How Can I Teach You to Be Happy
How Nice For You
I Heard You the First Time
If You Hadn't Told Me (I Never Would've Guessed)
It’s Not Like It’s Love
Just Another Mile
Justine
Leaving’s All That’s Left
Little Do You Know
Matter of Degree
Middle of Nowhere
My Incoherent Love
No One Should Be Alone at Xmas
Official Version
Out of My Way
Pigeon-Toed Girl
Power of Suggestion
Purple Cardboard Cutout Heart
Ring of Truth
Riot of Color
Robert Ryan
Secondhand Soul
Second to None
She Knows It All Too Well
Shouldn’t Something Happen
Something's Bad Wrong
Still More Than You Deserve
Tatyana (Why Don’t She Smile)
Tide Me Over
Too Cute By Half
True Lover’s Knot
Turned Away
Village of Justice
Walk Among the Stars
Way Too Blue
You Gave Better Than You Got
You’ll Never Hear From Me Again
Your Family Lives X Town
 


As You Were
Someday you'll see again
Someday you'll be with me again
Someday you'll be young again
And those words will trip from
your tongue again
I'll remember you
As you were

Time is a friend
It lets you down in the end

They say, "Just get over it"
And all the things I know you're going to miss
Well, that day maybe I'll forgive
All the things you did
and you long since forgot
I'll remember you
As you were

When your lips are sealed
And when your mind's been healed
And when all the mysteries have been revealed
I know somewhere you'll be
As you were

©1998. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



At a Loss
So few have ever known such a reckless thrill
If I could describe just how it felt, no one could keep me still
I’d step back in time if I could
To when you’d have understood
and I could say this loud and clear with just one kiss . . .

This paper said forever we would be in love
But after all it wasn’t ever quite enough
Those words fail me now just as I failed you then

And now, when I speak to you
I'm at a loss
How can I reach you
when I'm at a loss

I've driven past that house
about a thousand times
Like returning to the scene of
some dreadful crime
Honey, when it comes to you
I still don’t have a clue

I guess I should have known that the day would come
When all I'd ever owned would be
as good as gone
Well, if it’s a sin in the end,
I’d do the same damn things again
‘cause the words you want to hear
just don’t exist

And now, when I speak to you
I'm at a loss
How can I reach you
when I'm at a loss

Well, the words just won't come
Ever since you struck me dumb

©1998. Words and music by Vernam Cipher and Bruce White. All rights reserved.



Blinding Flash
I have seen fools suffer gladly
It’s not for me, not for me
What I mean is there’s no pity
deep enough to set you free
In a blinding flash night turns to day
Ready or not, in a blinding flash
You're on your way

The day we met, the sky went white
And my eyes did the same
Now I walk these halls all through the night
just looking for someplace to cast the blame
In a blinding flash night turns to day
Ready or not, in a blinding flash
You’re on your way

All decked out and not a damn place to go
In that projector light without a film to show

You spend your life yearning for something
Never knowing what you’ll find
But "to tell the truth" is not the same thing
as saying whatever comes to mind
In a blinding flash night turns to day
Ready or not, in a blinding flash
and you’re on your way

Every stream looks like a river
And every river like release

©1997. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.


Choir of One

There's a still, small voice
Bringing present joys
Through the wall each night it comes
Such an unearthly noise

Should I let her know
that I hear her singing low
Or does she realize it's good
without my ever saying so?

She's a Choir of One

If she's blond, if she's blind
If she's cross, if she's kind
I don't dare knock on her door
For fear of what I'd find

See, this uncertainty
has got the best of me
Can't shake the image of this girl
I haven't even seen

She's a Choir of One
She makes the brown leaves green
Outside the street sounds a little less mean

Even now come the spring
He lies there sure enough
Birds sing and flowers bloom
They're made of sterner stuff

Lord, let there be
At least one mystery
That hasn't been laid bare
for all the world to see

Sometimes the wrong dream comes true
So if it's all the same to you
Let me drift off to sleep
Alone and listen to my Choir of One

©2003. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



Cold Steel Handles
Cold steel handles burn through these thin white cotton gloves
As all your long-forgotten loves
sit perched in a row
You should’ve seen the gorgeous flowers
The air was crisp, the sky was clear
And the memories we all must bear
meant more than you could know
When I fell off the horse you got right back on it
There goes a man who couldn’t take a hint

Veiled threats and a failed promise I wish I’d kept to myself
In this car I’ll think of nothing else
‘til the bad’s outweighed by good
Some people need to feel more alive
Well, either you are or you ain’t
Now the rain they assured me would be fleeting
beats a tattoo on my hood
Since I fell off the horse and you got right back on it
There goes a man who couldn’t take a hint

A man whose biggest mistake was never admitting he’d made a mistake
And thinking he was fearless ‘bout scared us half to death
Sometimes one false step, yeah, one false step is all it takes
That’s all it takes

Now I’d give anything to see you walk through that door
But that’s not gonna happen anymore
I’m sitting up with this bottle and a case of nerves
Wondering if you got what I deserved
or more than you bargained for
When I fell off the horse you got right back on it
There goes a man who couldn’t take a hint

©1997. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



Common Desires
We met one evening
And by midnight
I held you so tight
No doubt came between us
By the time I let go
I'd seen plenty to know
Our common desires sure were strong
More than enough to obscure right and wrong
We've been led astray
Ever since the day that
These common desires came along

It's all such a waste
We never seem to learn
Now maybe it's your turn
to put me in my place
I saw that guy catch your eye
Don't you try to deny it now
'Cause your common desire's on display
It's naked and it will betray you
I guess it's something
I must've had coming
Your common desire gives you away

I could give you back that ring, it's gone green on my finger
But the jealousy remains like a stain that lingers

f that's how you feel
Who am I to fight it?
I might still love you
But I don't have to like it
I see you laughing with your friends
Isn't that how the story ends
But our common desires brought us here
And they'll be our downfall, I fear
Something's gotta to give
Unless we stop giving in
to those common desires
those common desires
those common desires
my dear

©1999. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



Don’t You Wonder Why
She's felt the wrath
of her bitter half
way too many times now
to think of turning back
He gets what he wants
if he has to bluff and taunt
But she’s tired of trying to see
the man he used to be

Don’t you wonder why
It has to be that way
Don’t you wonder why
You were meant to be mine
Don’t you wonder why
It has to be that way
Don’t you wonder why
Don’t you wonder why

Who knows what she goes through
Because he tends to do
such violence to the truth

It wasn't hard to see
where that life was bound to lead
After all those nights
When she'd moan just to be polite
She's through trying to appease
So they make love, not peace
It's one more battle to be fought
Like an afterthought
Don’t you wonder why, etc.

She left without a trace
but a note on her pillow
like a pillow to his face

"It was a solemn vow
but we’re both so different now
Not breaking any ground
Just digging through the lost and found
I swear by all that’s good
I have never understood
Why you look so far
for what’s right where you are"
Don’t you wonder why, etc.

©1999. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



Easier Said Than Done
You can give me
everything you've got but
Still it’s not the
very thing I need
You could be a friend in deed
but it's easier said than done

Can't you tell this
fix I'm in
See I've got you
under my skin
I used to know when to say when
but it's easier said than done
Easier said than done

Ever feel something so good?
Ever need something so bad?
Something so bad
Something so bad

Might as well be
paralyzed
Free will has a
certain price
Wish I had some good advice
but it's easier said than done

Ever feel something so good?
Ever need something so bad?
Something so bad
Something so bad

I nod off with
you on my mind
I wake up just
trying to find
something safer to pass the time
but it's easier said than done
Easier said than done
Easier said than done

©2000. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.

 
 
Easy as She Goes
See the boxes at the curb, as if you hadn't heard
It's all happening again
Another woman came and went
Seems no sooner do they come than I come to find
they're gone
So I'm learning not to care
when they decide to disappear

Easy as she goes -- I might miss you, baby
Easy as she goes -- but I'll be fine, you'll see
You can go or stay, it doesn't matter either way
Easy as she goes

In past times men were men and when someone's heart broke then
He'd just head off out to sea
But safe at home's where you'll find me
See, I won’t be set adrift just because she up and left
But nowadays what else can you do
when a woman walks on you

But take it easy as she goes -- don't shed a tear for me
Easy as she goes -- what will be, will be
Let folks say what they will, I’ll stay on an even keel
Easy as she goes

So you really wanna know
just how low someone can sink?
Let me tell you, it's a whole lot lower
than you'd ever think

On a dark December night when the sky is stark & quiet
A man can almost start to wonder
If it's not some star he's living under
Then maybe all along he's been doing something wrong
If you won’t give him credit for finally seeing
what a perfect fool he's been

Instead it's easy as she goes
Easy as she goes
Even if I love you still
Well, it's really no big deal
Easy as she goes
Easy as she goes

©2001. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



Got Caught Doing What I Ought Not Do

Na na na na na
Na na na na na

We met when I was down
She left when I was on top
Said half the point of coming 'round
is knowing when to stop
Made me swear not to
Give it a second thought
But I got caught doing
what I ought not do

How'd you get out?
I always mean to ask you
The clock don't say much
Mostly 'cause it doesn't have to
Now I don't want to
put you on the spot
But did you get caught doing
what you ought not do?

Cinder blocks never warm to the touch
And no kiss could ever mean that much
Turn the radio down
It's just interference
I'd kill to sleep
and know the difference

You haven't lived 'til you've been under arrest
Who knows what it is could make
an innocent man confess
I'm more alive than I ever was
for all it's worth
There's no reference point
No needle straining north
Shoulda seen me back before
my attention span was shot
And I got caught doing what I ought not do
I got caught doing what I ought not do

Na na na na na
Na na na na na

©2003. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.

Heartache’s in Store
The memories are stacked up
so neatly on the shelves
If it’s pity that you’re looking for
Well, just serve yourself
Here’s the special of the day
The crowds are lined up at the door
We’re almost giving it away
‘Cause heartache’s in store

Every cheap emotion
has been priced to sell
We’ve got jealousy, betrayal
and revenge as well
Or get yourself a package deal
That includes all three
With 10-percent more bitterness
we’re throwing in just for free
Now we’ve marked down
Every item on the floor
You might have love in mind
but heartache’s in store

Don’t look now, but you just fell
for the world’s oldest pitch
‘Cause romance is just the bait
and here comes the switch

You can ask for the manager
but all sales are final here
If you’d read the finer print
It was made quite clear
There’s no 1-800 number
that you can dial to complain
Don’t bother with the Better Business Bureau
Because it’s all in vain
You’re positively guaranteed to get
much less than you pay for
Got a bad case of buyer’s remorse
And heartache’s in store

Every day another one’s born
Heartache’s in store
The customer is always wrong
When heartache’s in store

©2001. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



Home Sweet Gone
Oh, the days I've wasted
All alone and aimless
Cast off, not missed
No one's friend
Don't ask what brought me
when I know you don't want me
Well, I just never thought
We'd ever meet such an end

But our shortcuts became detours
Crossroads turned to cul-de-sacs
I'm stuck on the frontage road of life

And what I wanted most
was to get up one day and go
Past where the city glows
Never to return
Yeah, I wished that I could ride
to where the stars still shine
But if you won't be my guide
Then where can I turn?

When my shortcuts become detours
Crossroads turn to cul-de-sacs
And I'm stuck on the frontage road of life
Something won't let me go
But it won't let me go back
Back to my home sweet gone

You say you're leaving
But seeing is believing
‘Cause I can’t quite conceive it
Though I wish you happy trails
How can I blame you
when all your fine neighbors
They do you no favors
Just hoping you'll fail

And your shortcuts become detours
Crossroads turn to cul-de-sacs
Stuck on the frontage road of life
Something won't let me go
But it won't let me go back
Back to my home sweet gone

©1998. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



How Can I Teach You to Be Happy
When I’m in I wanna be out
When I’m out I wanna be in
And I swear that I’d stop running
If I could just stand where I am
How can I teach you to be happy?

I’d make it all right up to you
with just the slightest chance
But I’ve done all that I can do
in this circumstance

Sometimes I'm good despite myself
Or else I'm bad in spite of you
Get laughed at for long enough
You could learn to love it, too
How can I teach you to be happy?

In a world of false assumptions, now wouldn’t it be something
If every word I say is true

But don't go thinking that it matters
when they all say that you’re on top
Better figure out when you're being flattered
Before you’ve no more names left to drop

Your expectations once were humble
Who knows where the time went
Your conscience got you into trouble
So you gave it up for Lent
How can I teach you to be happy?

In a world of false assumptions, anything could happen
but it probably won't

With your kisses I was taken
Gain a lover, lose a friend
Wonder just whose heart will be aching
With your patience at an end
How can I teach you to be happy?

©2001. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



How Nice for You
I see a lot of people
who can't wait to tell me how you're doing
They're all sharing the latest details
like they don't know you and I are through
And my one reply is
"I always knew she'd go far"
You're dealing with success
and your every dream's come true
Well, baby, how nice for you

I'm not saying that you're shallow
just 'cause I jumped head first,
It was a tale I couldn't quite follow
A trick I played on myself
I've got the postcards you sent
but you never meant those four words
I hear your blessings are many
and your disappointments are few
Well, baby, how nice for you

It's not easy hearing old friends brag ‘bout
where you've gone, who you've seen, and what you've done
I'd trade places with you if I could
so you'd know how it feels to be down at your heels
Crawling after a memory of when you were the one

Don't know what I'd say
if I saw you out on the street
Would I say what's on my mind
or be slightly more discreet
Well, I wouldn't give you the pleasure
of seeing me like this
No, I'd smile and take your hand
when you introduce your someone new
Yeah, I'm impressed, baby
You deserve the best, babe, yeah yeah
How nice for you
How nice for you
How nice for you

©1998. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



I Heard You the First Time
Held seven years against my will
If they had their way I’d be there still
Hied myself ‘cross eleven states
Just to be left standing at your gate
Don’t fret – I’ll be moving on
I heard you the first time

Turned around and found you looking down at me
My hand may tremble, but I’ll never let you see
This suit is stained and needs to be pressed
But it’s no crime, not the last time I checked
And there's no need to shove
‘cause I heard you the first time

Can’t remember when
Last I was touched
n something other than anger
You won’t let me stay
So how can I be
Anything but a stranger

Name a town, I’ve been down there
Who cares who knows? Who knows, who cares?

No matter how tight I shut my eyes
I never quite remember why

I never asked nobody’s help
You’re not so smart your damn self
I heard you the first time
I heard you the first time

©2000. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.


If You Hadn't Told Me (I Never Would've Guessed)

Did it look like they struck me a glancing blow?
It took more out of me than they'll ever know
Walk out the door each day, you take your chances
We're stuck here in this runout groove with all the
same old things we used to know better than to prove
Is there any truth left, or just consequences?
Well, if you hadn't told me, I never would've guessed
It never crossed my mind, I must confess
 
Don't ever stop hoping that lightning might strike
But when it does, you might not like it
'Cause bad as things are, they can still get worse
If we did half the things they said we did
God knows by now one or both of us would be dead
Instead of living like some debutante in reverse
If you hadn't told me, I never would've guessed
I'm still trying to master the obvious
 
Maybe I can't run from what I am
But why not run from what we can?
If you hadn't told me, I never would've guessed
 
We can sit around and wait while they carve up the past
Or take drastic steps to cover our tracks
 
If things work out in the end,
let's pretend we planned it
But what's it take to get used to being
taken for granted?
They'd all settle for just the one instead
So what's the point of dying a thousand deaths?
If you hadn't told me, I never would have guessed
If you hadn't told me, I never would have guessed
If you hadn't told me, I never would've guessed

©2003. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.

It's Not Like It's Love
I've got something to say
I think you feel it, too
We both knew there'd come a day
When this fling would be through
It's not like we're in love
It's not like it's love

I wouldn’t toy or trifle with
your affection but I swear
Little did I know
just how much you care
I must say I'm surprised
by the tears in your eyes
It's not like it's love, after all
It's not like it's love

Wish you'd told me sooner just how you felt
'Cause at this point, it can't be helped
I'm not one to mourn what's already lost
But something you said gives me pause
It's not like it's love

At last I see what's going on
It's not like it's love
How could I have been so wrong?
It's not like it's love
That doublespeak confused even me
It's not like it's love
Such a shock to finally see
It's not like, it's love

Please don't let on how I needed you
My pride would not abide it
Let's try pretending we've no regrets
though you can bet there's no use denying it

©1999. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



Just Another Mile
Unseen hands may guide me
Angels ride beside me
Though it's been quite a run
I'm looking for a sign that doesn't ever come
These spirits have conspired
to keep me just another mile from you

As a boy, I was told
of a rapture in the soul
But no matter how I climb
There's always one more rise and now I realize
that I'm never to be nearer than

Just another mile to you
But it feels like more to me
If it's the last thing I do
I'll walk just another mile to you

Like some distant station
That’s how you try my patience
If this ain't the darkest night
I sure hope it's close
'cause this radio's no use
and there's not a car in sight
When I'm just another mile to you
Just another mile to you

Do you love me as such?
Though I haven't kept in touch
It's an article of faith
That you're waiting there just like fate
Or so they say

But I'm just another mile to you
And it feels like more to me
If it's the last thing I do
I'll walk just another mile to you

©1999. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



Justine
I went by your house last night
And let myself in when I saw the light
Okay, so I admit I’m not that bright, Justine
You were talking way down low
Don’t tell me you were on the phone
‘Cause I know that you were not alone, Justine

On your back stair a footstep creaked
Across your lawn I saw his shadow sneak
Why should I believe a word you speak, Justine?
Give me just a little truth, just a little truth, Justine

You tell me to wait and see
Then step out looking like Miss Tennessee
You never wore that kind of dress for me, Justine
Can I ask you where you been?
Oh, were you really just out with your friends?
Honey, don’t let’s play this game again, Justine

Wish I knew what to take
Give me something to try and dull this ache
Crowd out this thought that I can’t shake

I think you’ll never make a wife
And this is cutting years off my life
‘Cause I can’t let you outta my sight, Justine
Give me just a little truth
Give me just a little truth
Give me just a little truth
Justine
Justine
Justine

©1997. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



Leaving's All That's Left
I'm still awake at dawn
and you're fast asleep
Stayed up too late talking 'bout
things that couldn't keep
Sometimes there's no simple way
to solve troubles that we face
Somewhere life still makes sense
And I'm bound to find that place
I told you once
What's the use repeating
When leaving is all that's left to do

The neighbors have no clue
what goes on inside this house
We’ve learned to keep our voices down
so no one hears a sound
The blinds don't let them see
How love has been defiled
And when we step outside
We always force a smile
Still, they ought to know
How looks can deceive
When leaving's all that's left to do

I'll leave my key
I'll leave my heart
But no forwarding address
I'll check the stove
I'll check the lights
And then check out like some guest

You're lost inside a dream
And I'll not disturb you there
But softly so you'll never know
I bend and stroke your hair
And listen to you breathe
Strain to hear your heart beat
It's not easy to concede defeat
But leaving's all that's left
Yeah, leaving's all that's left to do

©1998. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



Little Do You Know
You thought you were sure to know
When I was or wasn't trying
Though I rarely let it show
Still I'm tired of denying
Little do you know, little do I care

If I'm not what I seem to be
Well, after all, who is?
I'd say how much this means to me
But after all, the truth is
Little do you know, little do I care

You feel forsaken
Like you've fallen from grace
Unless I'm mistaken
It never mattered in the first place

When life's passing you by
And you're feeling out of touch
It's no real cause to cry
You're not missing all that much
Little do you know, little do I care

How I wish I could make you
Feel good about yourself
I'd tell you something other than the truth
If you think that would help

Let's pretend this means
something, that's a start
Let's pretend it's gonna mean a lot
Even though it's not

If I never find the words
to say I'm through with you
Look in my eyes, you'll be assured
I want nothing more to do with you
Little do you know, little do I care

©2002. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



Matter of Degree
This place could burn
It wouldn’t take much
Without thinking, we could ruin
all we ever touched

Though our fates
surely are entwined
And I know nothing on this Earth
is going to change your mind

I’m tired of going along just to get along
Certain as you are, you’re just that wrong
Insofar as I can see
It’s just a matter of degree

Grand are the words
that you say to me
But small are the thoughts
they betray to me

You’re so right, you don’t know what you’re saying
Why should I explain, there’s nothing to be gained
That’s for someone else to say
It’s just a matter of degree

Suffering in silence and in comparison, too
Was it really such an embarrassment to you?
A cautionary tale for the wayward among us
Sometimes the shortest path becomes the longest
Sometimes the weakest hunch
becomes the strongest

You’ve got polarizing shades
of wrong and right
But it’s a mystery to me
Not black and white

I can’t begin to comprehend
I don’t pretend to understand
That’s the difference between you and me
It’s no matter of degree
It’s no matter of degree

©2001. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.




Middle of Nowhere
Meet me in the middle of nowhere
Meet me in the middle of nowhere
This room is so clogged with dust
If I don't get out soon I'm gonna bust
'Round here, there's no hiding from
Who you are and all you might've done
Tired of 'em putting words in my mouth
Won’t spend another day in this town
Meet me in the middle of nowhere

The city's overrated
Got me discombobulated
Lost all sense of direction
In the mindless stacks of perfection
Tell me straight Can you keep a secret?
Don’t say yes unless you mean it
‘Cause all roads lead to the middle of nowhere

Won't need your GPS -- no north or south, east or west
I'm neither here nor there, and I don't care

Outside Jackson I saw a sign saying
"Last gas for a 100 miles"
C'mon baby, don’t you want to go
‘Cause you know it’s gonna be a while
Who says you gotta start somewhere?
Meet me in the middle of nowhere

©2000. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



My Incoherent Love
My incoherent love, please take your time
Speak clearly ‘cause you’ve nearly ‘bout
undone my mind

My incoherent love, all I do is plead
Like a diary under lock and key
You’re kinda hard to read

My incoherent love, don’t you despair
I wouldn’t blame you, no, but just the same
You give me quite a scare

Facts are sadder than fiction, I must say
Not that you’d ever know the difference, anyway

My incoherent love, come beside me to lie
Can’t you accept I'm too deep in your debt
ever to deny you

My incoherent love's senses are enflamed
Haven’t understood even a single word
It’s just a trick of your trade

Tell the truth, or would it ruin your mystique
What’s it like not to trust yourself to speak?

My Incoherent love, don't know what you say
Don’t be timid -- C’mon, let’s admit
it was a big mistake

My incoherent love, got me in a trance
I don't know you still, and if I never will
At least I had my chance

©2000. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



No One Should Be Alone at Christmas
Two good buddies and me
Tired and needing a place to eat
Chased a star, wandered 'neath the sky
Pulled up to a Texaco sign
They were hoping to get some sleep
Me, I thought we oughta drive on
Bought a pot of coffee and said
"Bet we'd make it there by dawn

'Cause no one should be alone at Christmas
and each of us has someone at home who'd miss us
Instead of staying here
in Pennsylvania on a night so clear
Let's try to make it there by Christmas"

I spied a girl, 'bout 17
sitting in a corner booth
She was eating some saltines
nursing a glass of water, too
Seemed to be all by herself
In not quite the best of health
Looked so cold and hungry there
We gathered what we three could spare
As I approached, her body tensed
I said, "Miss, don't take offense,
here's something, it's not much"
But I could see that she was touched
With such kindness in her eyes
Some hidden source of joy and pride
Then I noticed at her side
A baby lying bundled tight

She said, "See, at least I'm not alone at Christmas
I feel as if the precious lord has blessed us
Mister, thanks to you tonight
My girl will sleep warm and dry
Thank God you came along this Christmas"

Lord, I wish no one was alone at Christmas
Though I know just how forlorn this wish is
And deep inside I know
Wishing never made it so
Still, I hope you're not alone this Christmas
My friends and me
drove on that Christmas Eve

©1999. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



Out of My Way
For you I did it all
But you don’t seem to recall
My going out of my way

You were grateful at the time
Now it’s the last thing on your mind
I went out of my way
Out of my way for you

Wasn't out of my head
I wasn’t out of line
Just seemed like a good idea at the time
Don’t take offense
if none is meant
In retrospect
Just what did we expect?

Shouldn’t matter but it does
Shouldn’t say it but I will
I went out of my way

As a speck of dust
I will love you just as much
Did I say something wrong?
Did I lead you along?

Don’t think too hard, baby
See where it’s gotten me
I walked that line in my prime
But that’s the last time that I’m
Going out of my way
Out of my way
Out of my way

©2002. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



Pigeon-Toed Girl
How gracefully she glides
Back and forth, side to side
Sorta like a young giraffe
And I'll thank you not to laugh
'Cause that walk, I know it well
And I'm not ashamed to tell
that I'm in love with a pigeon-toed girl

When she was a child
All the boys would tease
They'd follow as she strolled
And mock her as she knocked her knees
Now I see her cross the room
and it's my knees that go weak
Every time I peek at a pigeon-toed girl

She looks just as fine in front as she does from behind
You can go ahead and stare, she doesn't really mind

But please try not to point
I'd know that shuffle anywhere
Her legs step through the door
Long before the rest gets there
Don't you try to act so cool
'Cause I know that you'll fall, too
When you meet my pigeon-toed girl
Yeah, there goes my
There goes my
Pigeon-toed girl

©1998. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



Power of Suggestion
He never lets on where he’s been
but she knows the instant
his fingers touch her skin
He wonders if she’d buy
one more lie of overtime
Though he never seems
to have a dime

She’s been thinking awful hard
‘bout an awful lot of things
All it ever got her
is a lot more things to think
And when her mind was snapping,
saying "These things happen"
was the best he could do
She’s so afraid to hear the truth

She’s pretending not to notice
She’s pretending not to notice
He’s just pretending that he cares

Is that divorcee next door at the root of all this
Or the waitress who saved him the biggest piece of pie
Could it be someone new at the office
or has the latest babysitter caught his wandering eye

He’ll never fool her with those
flowers or that kiss
Yet the power of suggestion
proves too much to resist
One day the whispered pleas
and tugged sleeves won’t dissuade her
And she’ll admit that he’s betrayed her

And stop pretending not to notice
She’ll stop pretending not to notice
He’s just pretending that he cares

©1997. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



Purple Cardboard Cutout Heart
He watched from the window
As she dragged the kid down the street
He fought the urge to follow
‘til they vanished in the heat

He was calm until he spied
from the corner of his eye
A purple cardboard cutout heart

For years it sat upon their mantelpiece
Right beneath his nose
She’d scrawled his name across the front
Just above "I love you, Rose"

His face tightened like a fist
As he saw what he’d always missed
That purple cardboard cutout heart

Though it was torn and faded
Her mother saved it all that time
No matter that she couldn’t even
color inside the lines
And it's the imperfections
he misses most about her now
All that he can do is hope somebody
somewhere’s looking out for her now

Wishes that he’d made the time
For it seems so precious now
Each cross word he ever said
all at once comes crashing down
He stares at the ceiling
but it’s not sleep he fears
It’s just the thought of waking
to the fact that she’s not near

He swears he’d bear any burden
And pay any price
Yeah, he’d do anything
but to take his own advice

Can’t recall what it was
He had to get off of his chest
The thought left unexpressed
is the one he most regrets
But wrapped up with a world of care
and tucked inside his vest
Is the purple cardboard cutout heart

©2001. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



Ring of Truth
Heard your faith's been broken
I recognize that sound
But that won't stop us hoping
That someday you'll come around
There's no getting past the ring of truth

You say that you're unhappy
'cause you let yourself be used
You found yourself guilty
Well, we've all been accused
Be wakeful for the ring of truth

Your ears may turn deaf
Eyes may go blind
Even if your tongue is cleft
Your words need not be lies

If all we've got in common
Is that bed of cold gray stone
You probably have it coming
In that you're not alone
We’ll all be laid low by the ring of truth

On the day when it comes calling
somewhere way on down the line
You'd just better answer
Don't even think of trying to hide
Just listen for the ring of truth

©2001. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



Riot of Color
Don't worry, baby
It's just the flowers breaking out
in a Riot of Color

You tell such exquisite lies
In the morning no one even remembers
Holed up somewhere in the hills
Who says you can't hide forever?

I guess everyone could see
Everyone except for me
What you had in store
And who you had it in for

If the brush begins to burn
You can wade into the water
But it's just the flowers breaking out
in a Riot of Color
A Riot of Color

Almost admired how you worked the room
after digging out ‘neath that last chandelier
Someday there’ll be no more names to drop
Even your dog will start to ignore you
And the crowds won’t part for you
You know it in your heart
Your tiny little heart

Now I’ve got my mind right
Though your eyes still tend to deceive me
And as the end comes in sight
Does it come as some relief?
You can tell yourself it don’t mean a thing
If you try hard enough, you'll believe anything

Like when the street begins to burn
You can wade into the water
It's just the flowers breaking out for now
in a Riot of Color
A Riot of Color

©2000. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



Robert Ryan
He's got eyes like two little bits of coal
Dark smudges on the windows to his soul
There's something smoldering just below
He's got eyes like two little bits of coal

Now he's in one of his Robert Ryan moods
One more drink, man, I wish you would
Don't try talking sense, iIt won't do any good
When he's in one of his Robert Ryan moods

He knows it's wrong, and that just makes it worse
Has a way with words, knows how to make them hurt
Even when he says a prayer, it sounds more like a curse
He knows it's wrong, and that just makes it worse

Did two hitches back in the second war
Those SOBs never knew what they were in for
He's not the type to tell you what he saw
when he was fighting in the second war

So he's out getting stinko with some friends
If he ever bothers coming home again
He'll be reeking of cheap gin and trying to make amends
When he's finished getting stinko with his friends

He's a hot head, there's no use to deny
He'll promise next time that he's really gonna try
Do you believe it? Well, it's a lie
He's a hot head, and there's no use to deny

He doesn't mean to take it out on you
But he's in one of his Robert Ryan moods
You don't know how he's tried, how it tears him up inside
Every time he takes it out on you

He has his bad days, he has his good
Just watch out for those Robert Ryan moods

©1999. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



Secondhand Soul
People and places come to me
Every day as in a dream
With such strange familiarity
I’m worried, wondering what it means
I’ll be walking down a path I haven’t ever seen
But every twist and turn seems so plain to me

With a secondhand soul
Secondhand soul
You'd think I'd know by now
You’d think I’d know by now

Wasn’t made from whole cloth
Just some remnants that got torn off
Not mint but more than fair
With a little wear and tear
And a blemish here and there
Only adds to the character

Of a secondhand soul
Secondhand soul
They don’t make ‘em like that no more
They don’t make ‘em like that no more

When you’re dead to the world
and the feeling is mutual
You wanna give in to something greater
And be the last to leave the theater
But credits roll and church bells toll
It’s time you waste 'til you’re left in haste

Be sure your sins will find you out
Be sure your sins will find you out

If you stumble on me
while rummaging ‘round
In some Salvation Army lost and found
Don't cast me off or hand me down
Just look real close behind these eyes
And maybe try me on for size

Secondhand soul
Secondhand soul
Secondhand soul
Secondhand soul

©2001. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



Second to None
She's the ultimate all-time Number One
There's a woman second to none

Nearly perfect in every respect
Nary a flaw you could detect
When she says that she loves me,
or words to that effect

I know she redeems me
like some empty bottle
But explaining what she means to me
is such a losing battle

She is gentle, and she is wise
I’d like to thank whoever spliced me into her life
You could look around a long, long time
But you’re never gonna find another one
There’s a woman second to none

She’s way beyond compare
Yeah, she’s the fairest of the fair

Swear I never meant to hurt her
I started thinking I deserved her
But there’s nowhere I wouldn’t follow her
To any corner of the earth
Or way out there to the edge of
this cold, old universe

She’s the infinite when all’s said and done
Got a woman second to none
She's the ultimate all-time Number One
Got a woman second to none

©2001. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



She Knows It All Too Well
She has the upper hand
And she knows it well
Her wish is my command
And she knows it well

The traffic stalls when she goes by
And she knows it well
To her the rules do not apply
And she knows it well
I say dignity is over-rated
I’ve no knack for understatement
And she knows it all too well

Even the Lorelei would envy her
And she knows it well
She’ll toss her hair across her shoulder
That shows she knows it well

I’m in way above my head
And she knows it well
It’s filling me with awe and dread
And she knows it well
When that siren’s screaming
I’m the one who hears her call
And she knows it all too well

She says loving me is such a thankless task
And it’s way more than I ought to ask

‘Cause I’m too deep in her debt
And she knows it well
I’ll deserve just what I get
And she knows it well

I’m so easily amused
And she knows it well
It’s a privilege to be abused
And she knows it well
I’m a willing supplicant
Completely in her thrall
And she knows it all too well

She says loving me is a thankless task
And it’s way more than I ought to ask

There’s but one for whom I yearn
And she knows it well
I have nowhere else to turn
And she knows it well
See, I will always be there for her
I’m powerless to ignore her
Therefore she knows it well
She knows it all too well

©2001. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



Shouldn’t Something Happen
Shouldn't something happen
like the sun go out
Shouldn't something happen
like the sea go calm
It's not just another day

Shouldn't something happen
when I feel like this
Shouldn't someone notice
It’s kind of hard to miss
Any fool could tell
It’s not like I hide it well
Shouldn't something happen by now?

I've seen it in the movies and heard it in those songs
How the whole world stops on cue
But tune in the evening news and you'd think there's nothing wrong
Now wouldn't you?

So I turn off the sound
Pretend they're talking about us
Though there ain’t much doubt
they’ll go right on without us
It's not just another day
Shouldn't be another day

Shouldn't something happen?

©2000. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



Something’s Bad Wrong
There's a guy we all know
People say he's a little slow
And it only goes to show
As I've said all along

He hasn't got a lick of sense
Kind of quick to take offense
You can say he's a little tense
Something's bad wrong

Likes collecting shiny things
Has a box, it's full of string
Sometimes at night he sings
A simple little song

He gave his family fits
Now he and them are quits
Won't get far living by his wits
Something's bad wrong

See him grin
From ear to ear
He's not right
This much is clear
Life has a funny way
of making certain people pay

Few have peered inside his mind
Most are certain what they'd find
Truth is, they don't like his kind
And suspicions sure are strong

He's cross-eyed, it's a shame
Don't try seeing things his way
Or mixed up you're gonna stay
Something's bad wrong

He’s a jinx, he’s a dope
He pretends to get your joke
I don’t see as there’s any hope
He never did belong

His mama's love only hurt
And his daddy showed him worse
He knows the chapter, not the verse
Something's bad wrong

Might seem he can barely stand
Might look like a broken man
But he’s the one with an empty hand
When the first stone is thrown

Blank expression on his face
Staring off into space
There you go but for the grace
Something’s bad wrong

©2000. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



Still More Than You Deserve
Back then we believed
we had a lot to say
Ain't it hard to realize
You're just young and in the way
They said it was bound to happen
Somewhere along the line
You'd let your guard down
And let your hopes get way too high
Is it less than you expected?
That's what I heard
Well, if it's less than you expected
It's still more than you deserve

Despite what people think
I know just where you went wrong
You sold yourself short
for the right to belong
And now it makes no difference
What you say or do
'Cause this comeuppance
was long, long overdue

Is it less than you expected?
Just mark my words
Though it's less than you expected
It's still more than you deserve

But I wouldn't say it had to come to this
‘Cause ignorance ain't such a good excuse
In the end you always tend to take
exactly what I can't afford to give

The sun falls
but you still can't beat the heat
Slumber calls
and you're still too tired to sleep
You replay the day's events
'til it's so hard to unwind
Those threads of regret
Twisting round and round
Round and round
Round and round
in your mind

Promise you'll remember
where you heard it first
When it's less than you expected
and way more than you deserved

©1999. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



Tatyana (Why Don’t She Smile?)

Why don’t she smile?
While she’s making you wonder
what’s underneath that mask,
what she’s holding back
All you gotta do is ask
why she don’t smile

Just behold her
No room could enclose her
Was she born that way?
Or did she learn to betray
no hint of pleasure,
nerves, or dismay?

Why don’t she smile?
While she’s making you wonder
what’s underneath that mask,
what she’s holding back
All you gotta do is ask
why she don’t smile

She’s more than he can face
like 13 flowers in a vase
She said her name meant to dance
But he never had a chance
And some things never make sense
no matter how old he gets

She tried living for the church
She tried living for the state
She’s gonna live for herself now If it’s not too late
She thought the world was a tree-lined street
and the strong cared for the weak

They shared a dusty little berth
from there to St. Petersburg
As the train rocked them to sleep
he stole a glance at her silhouette
Though they’d never meet again
he didn’t care a bit
As light from the last station
shone right through the glass
She flashed her impatience
She’d hoped it might last . . .

Why don’t she smile?
While she’s making you wonder
what’s underneath that mask,
what she’s holding back
All you gotta do is ask
why she don’t smile

©1997. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



Tide Me Over
Washed up though I may be
Ain’t seen the last of me
Just tide me over

I’ll be your faithful man
If you’ll only do what you can
To tide me over

Deeper than Nemo or Cousteau
50,000 leagues below
So tide me over

I’m slinking off
without a tether
Sinking soft
as a feather through the air

I’m gonna be gone so long
But I’m not gonna do you wrong
Just tide me over

Won’t you extend your hand?
Pull me to dry land
And tide me over

Caught in the undertow
It’s all ebb and no flow
So tide me over

I’m slinking off
without a tether
Sinking soft
as a feather through the air

In the cold and inky deep
I guess that’s where I’ll sleep
If you don’t tide me over

©2002. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



Too Cute By Half
I wish you'd say what's on your mind
I wish you didn't always waste all my time
by forcing me to guess what you meant
You said yes, but you shook your head
Oh, baby, don't make me laugh
You're too cute, too cute by half

When I think I've got you figured out
You leave me standing in the shadow of doubt
You've got that smile, those eyes, that charm
You turn me on like a false alarm
I'm gonna take you to task
'cause you're too cute, too cute by half

Why'd you have to be such a tease?
Won't you get me off of my knees
I stand to lose all self-respect
when you ask me what did I expect
I guess I should've done the math
You're too cute, too cute by half

I'm headed for an early grave
If the path to hell is paved for me
Your intentions weren't all that good
You're no better than you should be
Wait a minute now, not so fast
You're too cute, too cute by half
That'll be my epitaph
"Too cute, too cute by half"

©2001. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



True Lover’s Knot
Good people, they all said
Frank Shea wasn't brought up right
His future was unsure
as young Lucy Tate's was bright
When they exchanged vows
not one soul bothered to attend
She gave him a fragile bow
and a painted card that read

Not too loose, not too tight
That'll do it, just about right
True Lover's Knot

But tales spread, house to house
of awful quarrels that occurred
When Lucy Shea
dropped from sight without a word
Though just a dozen days went past,
dark suspicions people nursed
For of proud Frank Shea
They were quick to think the worst

That’ll do it, just about right
Not too loose, not too tight
True Lover's Knot

Just before they took his life
The crowd all paused to bow their heads
Frank’s eyes were fixed
And not a word he said
When they cut him down
clutched in his useless hand
The undertaker found
another card and unraveled strand

Though I’ll long to hold you tight
I’ll be home soon, in a fortnight
True Lover's Knot

Crossing, winding in and out
Never ending, round about

©2001. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



Turned Away
Young face
But old eyes
Promised love, got told lies

When she says no
It means "hell, no"
She says yes, it means "yeah, I guess"
Turned away

A matched set
Broken up
Choices made and plans mislaid

Think they're smart
More than most
But they're not the least bit close
Turned away

And from a simple impulse
Here come some complex results
He'll turn up at her door again
Press that button for all the good it does to him

Shoeless she stood
Bathed in a light
Taken back to heaven alive

People change
and time won't last
He goes on dying in the past
Turned away
Turned away

©2000. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



Village of Justice
In a round roof house by the sterile lake
He’d sing her to sleep then drink himself awake

Word in the second-guess city
said he was no damn good
But she gave him a chance
when nobody else there would

Days on end they spent alone
a law unto themselves
The promise that he made but
should’ve kept to himself
No one bothered living up to it in the Village of Justice

The place could burn
It wouldn’t take much
Without thinking he ruined
all he ever touched

Not many years had past
but the door was painted shut
And newspaper stacks
were fading into dust

In the closet hung the dress she never wore
A photo on the wall from 1964

As the trees began to talk
and the light grew dim
Time came to a crawl
like an Elgin with a broken stem
No one bothered living up to it in the Village of Justice

Dirt gets thick
Mixed with blood
Makes a darker
Sort of mud

Her memory was his sole pursuit
and he didn’t get far
It chased him right down
by the cal-sag reservoir

He went down there one last time
At the end he pictured her as she was in her prime

Even now come the spring
He lies there sure enough
Birds sing and flowers bloom
They’re made of sterner stuff

No one bothered living up to it in the Village of Justice

©2001. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



Walk Among the Stars
You say show me the proof
Not what might be true
All your grand experiments and theories—
just ask me if I care
Make me feel that awe
Show me all that I never saw

Take me for a walk among the stars
It's as real as anything else
Take me for a walk among the stars
Let me know what I've only felt
Spread me thin across the sky
If some truth within me lies
Then we'll walk among the stars tonight

You monopolized my time
and scandalized my name
Some people take whatever's real, then pervert it
and preach about it to the converted
I'd go live out in the woods
If I thought it would do any good

Just take me for a walk among the stars tonight

You might take me for a fool and tell me everything I know is wrong
But try not to be that cruel Just ‘cause I can’t work it out on my own

I want to see what can't be seen
Want to touch what can't be touched
You wake up in the middle of a dream
and somehow life never meant so much
Save me from winning, save me from losing
Save me from thinking, save me from choosing

Take me for a walk among the stars
It's as real as anything else
Take me for a walk among the stars
Let me know what I've only felt
Spread me thin across the sky
If some truth within me lies
Then we'll walk among the stars tonight

©1997. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



Way Too Blue
Take it from me
You're way too blue
Don't play that card
It don't suit you
This old hat
wears awful thin
Ain't been yourself
since who knows when
Did you make the scene
or did the scene make you?
It's plain to see
You’re way too blue

At first you liked passing
time by yourself
Now you're not doing
much of anything else
Can't help thinking
that's your whole problem
The thoughts keep on coming
the more you try to stop them
Something must be said
once and for all
"There's something to be said
for saying nothing at all"
Don't make me ask twice
I beg of you
I hear it in your voice
You're way too blue

Heard you did some hard living
And found yourself unforgiven
But let’s trace that searchlight wherever it leads
Let’s find an itch to scratch until it bleeds

People say
Something's bad wrong
Life might be short
But the nights sure are long
Morning paper's late
What else is new?
The boy lost his way
He's way too blue

©2000. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



You Gave Better Than You Got
Strapped our bags to the top of a two-door Ford
Were we in love or just bored?
Left that town in a rush
with dreams that never did amount to much

We saved to buy a house on Marble Hill
Soon came the day we'd had our fill
So all we raised there were doubts
It’s just a memory that nags me now
Darling, you gave much better than you got
You gave much better than you ever got

Don't ask me where I've been when you know I can't say
Take my word for it, honey -- you’d love me anyway

Though every day brought more bad news
everyday I did what I had to
'Cause I had you to cut the odds in half
Now it all seems such a laugh

If words best left unsaid keep running through your mind
Let's not dwell on that, you know I’m not that kind

No flowers mark the spot where love died
Now there’s no such thing as foolish pride
Tell me how can I atone
when you can’t know what I’ve done?
Darling, you gave much better than you got
You gave much better than you ever got

©1997. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



You'll Never Hear From Me Again
I know what it means to be forgiven all too soon
And how it is being sorry a little too late
When things that made you proud
Start to make you feel a fraud instead
There's nothing to discuss
You'll just never hear from me again

They'll all ask why when I disappear
Let's just say I got spooked by something in the mirror
When even real good friends
say you'll come to no good end
I'd love to stay and prove 'em wrong
But you'll never hear from me again

And as I walk along
I wonder why I didn't walk
a long time ago

There are things far worse than to turn and run away
Sometimes that takes more nerve than it would to stay
So go on, say what you will
This is more than just a whim
We all must do what we do well
So you'll never hear from me again

You say the fault's all mine But it's subject to debate
And this is not the time -- can't you see, it's getting late
So grant me one last request
Don't rest on what might have been
Just tell yourself it's for the best
When you never hear from me again

And as I walk along
I wonder why I didn't walk
a long time ago

©1999. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.



Your Family Lives X Town
Billy needs a haircut
and sister's shoes aren't tied
No one's home to wash the dishes
and one thing you can't deny
Your home's a mess ever since you left
to sneak and fool around
I don't wanna be a drag, but your family lives 'cross town

Your man can do without your loving
but there's certain other things
a fella's just gotta have from
the one who wears his ring
What's a guy to do when there's a woman who
is nowhere to be found?
I hate to break it to you, but your family lives 'cross town

I'm not talking 'bout who you kiss
or who you're holding tight
If you're home in time for breakfast
he won't care where you slept last night

This is your last chance
to get where you belong
Why not just swallow your pride
and admit that you were wrong
If you don't go back, then they'll have to pack him
deep, deep in the ground
Don't let me stand in your way when your family lives 'cross town

Now I've got to get to work, and your family lives 'cross town

©1998. Words and music by Vernam Cipher. All rights reserved.